tell · me · that · your · alright

I am sooo in the writing about my life mood.

Two weeks until senior year begins. Two weeks until I FINALLY turn seventeen. Two weeks until I begin my final field hockey season. In two weeks I will be thrown back into the drama and craziness of that I call high school.

This summer was full of drama drama drama, and a ex?friend of mine explained to me in a random convo the other day that, this summer has brought out the worst in everyone, even herself. The last part of the statement shocked me, shes not one to bring up those things.

This senior year I have a few goals. 1. Obviously I need to achieve killer grades, especially first term, I want to show colleges that I dont slack, and with my heavy workload and fieldhockey/dance schedule I can do it. 2. I want to be more involved than ever at saugus high, yes that means attend all the sporting events, show my leadership in the four groups I am involved in. I dont want to miss out on anything this year! Its time to make the memories. 3. More than anything, I want to help out at my dance school. I texted my aunt today and she said of course I can, and hopefully it fits into my dance schedule. This could possibly be my last year of dancing, so I should savor every moment. 4. I need to stop being so judgemental, and face everyone with my opinions, but hold back on some. I want to become friends with people I never dreamed of being friends with. Its time to get rid of that "bitchy aura" that always has surrounded me throughout the years. 5. Last but not least, I need to stay loyal. Like always I have shown every single friend that I have cared and would drop anything to be with them, and I will continue to do so. I will always strive to be the better person, the better friend.

I am so excited! I'm trying to push away every bad thought that has accumulated this past summer. and hey! it's going to be autumn, my favorite season, the chill season ; ).

Things i cannot wait for.
1. school shopping.
2. my birthday
3. the first day of school.
4. first field hockey game.
5. so you think you can dance tour.
6. apple picking!
7. clubbing
8. getting to know new&old people!
9. spain
10. mexicooo

So now, I must get back to doing my summer work. 6 more books to read, and a ton of history work! kill me now! =)

Write ten statements aimed at different people
never tell which one is to who.

1. I cannot be your friend anymore. I've tried so hard but it's always your way and I actually find you repulsive at times and yes, i want to hit you. You are overly obsessive about too many things, mainly boys, and its very unhealthy and one day your live will be ruined because of it. I'm done with giving you a shoulder to lean on, because i never get one in return.

2. You can be the hugest asshole at times, but i deal with it. I do so much for you and i love you but i think you need to step it up just a little. but ill love you forever and if you slack then ill just bitch at you as always because i know you love me as well =)

3. I am sooooo glad that i became friends with you this year. I can talk to you about anything and not feel like a nerd or a weirdo. I know you wouldnt lie to me or ever ditch me because basically we do the same kind of stuff. Everytime ive hung out with you so far has never been boring, and i dont find myself sitting on your bed reading a whole book. haha

4. I am sooo glad i became friends with you this year too. WE have sooo much in common and i would die without you in art class... and all my other classes as well..haha. i can talk to you about anything and you are the funniest girl everr.

5. you. ive known you for a few years. but until a few days ago i actually found out the real person you are. to find out that you hated me because of something i said was childish. because you should know the person that i am. but anyways, after all of the stories i heard i actually feel bad for your friends and all the boys you talk to. next time you im me and ask me for something im probably going to think twice before anwsering you. sorry.

6. i just cannot stand the person you have become. i have seen you in hallways and i just ignore you. i wont even say hi anymore. you are a quitter, and you basically do not deserve anything in your life right now. you need to realize that things dont come as easy as they have in the past years.

7. STOP showing off. you believe you are friends with everybody. when you know that you do not have any stable friendships right now. be yourself, i know its in you. get involved and start anew. because basically im getting pretty sick of your shit. you think you are cool when you drink and do other stuff. nobody likes you. nobody. get your act together and be real. ive been in your situation and i have NEVER acted as close to as you have.

8. ayyyyy.. i love you cause you are hilarious. we have so much in common and im glad were closer. ever since 8th grade ive always liked you as a friend and im glad we never lost touch. i hope we hang out moree!!

9. you are white trash. you are obsessed with your boyfriend and have become quite rude. we were supposed to hang out and we never did. ive given you too many chances. every conversation with you makes me feel like i should just dump my boyfriend to break your heart. sorry

10. you two. im SO dissapointed in you guys. we could have been the best of friends, but you were to involved in your little group. we had so much in common and i was best friends wiht both of you before. but now you drink and its gross. you both were amazingly smart and funny and truly genuine.